http://www.beaupedia.org Man Under Construction Mon, 12 Jul 2010 11:00:00 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0.1 http://www.beaupedia.org/2010/07/12/my-week-on-twitter-07-11-2010/ http://www.beaupedia.org/2010/07/12/my-week-on-twitter-07-11-2010/#comments Mon, 12 Jul 2010 11:00:00 +0000 Beau http://www.beaupedia.org/2010/07/12/my-week-on-twitter-07-11-2010/

From The New York Times: Jim Bohlen, Led in Creation of Greenpeace, Dies at 84
http://nyti.ms/b5oV3k

Just got my "Would It Kill You" Early Adopters Preorder from @itshellogoodbye!!! Thanks to whoever slaved over getting these shipped!

Such…a…nerd; so excited that I will have a 401k again in a few months. I love investing, wish I had more money to do it with.

Xfinity Remote – awesome web app (not just iPad)! http://youtu.be/RLz72XErN8U

Great first day! Really like my trainer and feel great about future potential with the company. Can't wait for day two!

Here goes! First day at Comcast!

Human rights activist tries to stop death by stoning for Iranian woman – http://bit.ly/aLbvm7 If you don't already donate to Amnesty, start.

My Top 3 Weekly #lastfm artists: Michael Bublé (31), Colbie Caillat (27) and The Rocket Summer (15) http://bit.ly/aGnuyL

Thinking of him right now but trying not to go there mentally and emotionally.

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Wow, I've got a problem. Wikipedia is offline and I am realizing exactly how much I use it. Tried to load it for 5 diff things in 20 mins.

Want to buy a portable air conditioner to keep in my bedroom, any recommendations? Preferably under $350. I've read so many reviews today.

God, I really freaking love Sea Shepherd.

Civic Center Sounds – Independence Eve Celebration http://twitpic.com/228n79

Headed down to Civic Center Park for the Colorado Symphony Orchestra and fireworks with my Little.

Closing one chapter and beginning a new one. Thanks for everything Academic Advising!

My Top 3 Weekly #lastfm artists: Michael Bublé (30), Colbie Caillat (27) and Owl City (17)

http://ping.fm/p/w889n – This is the kind of moment I've been wanting for a while. Lying back on my patio reading. Gorgeous evening.

Sen. Jeff Sessions is such a douche. I really, strongly dislike him.

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Check this video out — Extraordinary Pantene Commercial http://youtu.be/Um9KsrH377A

Pretty impressed with Paul McCartney live on YouTube. #bornhivfree #HRC2010

Paul McCartney live: http://www.youtube.com/BornHIVFree

Companionist http://in.flux.com/dcyKLB

Really in some heavy stuff thinking about Dustin, but, trying to pull myself out of it. It's the weekend, it's time to move and be happy.

Really missing Dustin. It's Chip's Birthday, and he should be here for this.

RT @bing Retweet this & @Bing will donate $10 to @CNN's Gulf Telethon up to $100K. More at http://bit.ly/howtodonate. #BingforGulf

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PrideFest 2010http://twitpic.com/1yl77h

Watching Vanguard: Missionaries of Hate on Hulu: http://www.hulu.com/watch/150328/vanguard-missionaries-of-hate MUST WATCH

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It's a little late, but Amber Riley (Mercedes) kicked ass on "Good Vibrations". That's all. http://bit.ly/9KNxZr

About to write what may be the most difficult letter of my life. Miss you Dustin.

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Really hurting, met so many people today who loved him. Did he know?

Dustin, I'm thinking of you and I love you.

Feeling more anxious with every passing minute. No idea what to expect tomorrow. I just miss him.

Just started boarding. Really torn over how to feel. Missing Dustin. Will be great to see friends though.

Flight is booked. Thanks to all of my incredible friends who helped make this possible. I love you guys.

Well, worth a shot. #N1DockGiveaway

Screw you Qwest and your impossible to cancel automatic withdrawal. Now I'm hosed.

How lucky was I that the one that got away ended up being my best friend. Then he died, at his own hand. Really such bullshit.

Drill Baby Dri….dammit, I STILL can't chant that yet?

Just wondering what the nearest state that I can drive to is.

I desperately want to leave.

Damn, I'm missing him.

My mind keeps doing this weird thing where it thinks I'm flying home to visit Dustin, and I have to keep reminding myself. Hurts so much.

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From The New York Times: When Afghans Seek Medical Aid, Tough Choice for U.S.
http://s.nyt.com/u/tKDl

He's really gone. A week from today we'll be "celebrating his life", but I'm not sure how much celebrating I'll be doing. I miss him.

One of those days. Absorbed in missing him. So many adventures still to have. So many hugs unshared. Wish I had a cave to disappear into.

At any other time I would be far more excited and hopeful about this. Apathy wins out.

Having very real thoughts of packing as much as I can into my car and driving away. Don't see how I'm going to pull the next 2 weeks off.

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And now my computer is broken. God dammit. If it isn't one thing it's another. I hate this damn year.

Just had a dream about Dustin for the first time since he's been gone. It was horrible.

Called for Sestak. Very relieved. Wasn't able to make many political contributions this year, but he was one of them. On we go.

Man, I hope this doesn't go to Specter. What a gigantic piece of crap he is.

Going to be one of those days. When will my Tuesdays return to being just another day in the week and not the day we lost Dustin?

I'm in this weird phase of seeing Dustin everywhere. Any person/photo with even the slightest resemblance gets a double-take. Miss him.

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Just stumbled upon my last communication with him. He said "Just give me a quick call…ASAP." I didn't. I just found this. This is bad.

Keep having to up my ChipIn because ticket prices keep going up. I really have to pull this off, somehow.

Just read an update, brokenhearted over the loss of the wedding ring. Just feeling really down, missing him so much. Think I'll just sleep.

Missing him a lot right now. I'm also not enjoying people telling me to find the positive lesson in this. There is no damn positive lesson.

Went all day without breaking down, almost made it to sleep. Hurting so bad right now. Why him? I loved him so much. No one else compared.

Raising money for a plane ticket home for Dustin's memorial service. If you can help: http://bit.ly/dustinflight

Suicide jokes aren't funny, never have been. I'm disappointed I didn't call them out before. Annoyed that GLEE felt the need to make one.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me, how you suffered for your sanity…but I could have told you Dustin, this world was never mean

Just randomly had the thought to call him. I wish my brain would accept it and stop with these painful moments of hope.

I still have a DM from you in my inbox here. Why can't you come back and let me respond. I'll be there. For anything. I love you so much.

Come back. It hurts so damn much. I needed to tell you so many things. God, why the hell didn't I call? I should have kept calling.

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Come back.

Ok, I'm not doing okay. I was making it before, I'm not now.

Dustin Take Your Bow http://ping.fm/82I0j

Giving up on sleep. Haven't convinced myself to lay down yet, the thought of trying and turning out the light is terrifying.

I want him back, I want him back, I want him back, I want him back. I want my goddamn brain to stop telling me he isn't dead.

Pit in my stomach is growing, not lessening. Grateful for the amazing friends in my life, just desperately wish he was still one of them.

I can't stop seeing his face. My brain still thinks this is temporary and that he'll be back soon.

Turning off the light and climbing into bed seemed to magnify it all.

Sleep isn't coming. Remembering times with him. He had my absolute favorite laugh of anyone. Loud and goofy. Absolutely the best.

Goddammit Dustin, I want you back here. We had plans, you and Chip had plans, we were supposed to have so much more time.

Going to try to sleep. God I miss him. I can't focus on anything else. I miss him so terribly.

I wish I could scream loud enough, or cry hard enough and he'd come back to us. Feel odd sharing these thoughts so publicly, but it helps.

Lost Dustin. Stomach is inside out, it's all in slow motion. I'm struggling to breathe & believe it's real. God, I loved him. I really did.

Damn you, LOST.

The move changed my congressional district! Nooooooo!

Knew the Barack Obama stickers would piss off some redneck one of these days. Some anonymous coward spit on my car.

May have lost my Zune 60 today. So disappointed; felt sick when I noticed I didn't have it. Hope I left it at work.

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